no shooting

 

I don't think you are supposed to feel happy all the time.

But like, my problem is I feel sad and dwell on it so fucking much

ejem.

I fall sometimes

I pick at that wound and marvel at the sight of blood

smear it like shame all over my face, all over my body

making sure I'm sufficiently moist 

TO GO SPIRALING DOWN LIKE A SHOOTER DOWN A SHOOT THING

and maybe that's bad.

ejem.

There is no escape from the water inside oneself

but I don't have to will a huge wave that washes over me.

We are always looking towards the big, deep, scary sea

across it to the sunset, sometimes

there are days when it rushes back to meet me with striking force 

in a big wave

I dream of tsunamis

and giant robots

but not every wave is a tidal wave