this year

2020 will be a year
the news say I have to set achievable goals
I don't even set my goodreads reading goal anymore
because I don't believe in myself of late
I believe in the worth others give me
but what about myself?
what do I want for me?
I want to work in something that doesn't give me nightmares
what is that something?
I enjoy teaching
the vacations, the free time

I would like to learn endless things
I am young
I like doing different things

I'd like to read again.

I want to read the rest of the dark tower books.

I want to finish this school year and not get fired.

I want to exercise regularly.

I want to go to the medieval fair.

I want to save money.

I want to improve my self esteem.

I want to find out why I put myself down so.

Why am I so blind towards my own needs and desires?